The average eight year old can be found outside, enjoying company with friends or playing imaginary wars with action figures and developing their foundation in life. But I struggled with identifying who I was as a young man and after being abruptly molested, my life was tattered. Those circumstances became door ways anger that turned to rage, molestation that turned into a relationship, and lust that turned into an strong addiction to porn. Fighting with those issues, I fought for the attention of an absent father and a relationship with a mother that was raising me to the best of her ability. With secrets within me, I knew that I would have to make a choice one day. It would be between who I was and who I desired to be.
I began to use my body as I pleased and although I wasn’t on a street corner, I was still prostituting. Once I came out and told my loved ones about my choice of lifestyle, I was unstoppable. Even with my decision of how I chose to be, I knew there was another choice that had to be made. I began visiting churches seeking answers and deliverance. I only found myself in deeper sin as I began to sleep with members of the church. There was no shame, from pew to pulpit the relations continued.
I knew that there was no way I could receive deliverance from man if they themselves were dealing with the same issue. So I turned back to the world feeling like a used product instead of a person, damaged goods. I started living for the thrill of things that made me happy, sleeping promiscuously, stripping, looking for love on the chat lines, and internet. It became a game to me. A challenge from day to day. Another obstacle to conquer. Another trophy on my shelf. Then I was introduced to the greatest challenge of them all, from the D.L (Down Low) to the D.L. (Delivered Lifestyle) .
I was then introduced to God at the Upper Room later to be known as The Burning Bush Church. There I received true deliverance and understanding that with God, what the world says is impossible (someone being delivered from homosexuality) is possible. Some might ask “how do you know your delivered?” It was not because of anything I did but what Jesus did 2000 years ago when he died on the cross, not only just for me but for you . I stand on his word “therefore if the son makes you free, you shall be free indeed” ( John 8:36). It didn‘t say if others agreed or not with me being free; “therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; old things have passed away behold all things have become new” (2 Corinthians 5:17) and there is nothing left out of all.
Yes that’s my mind, thoughts, desire, feelings, and my perspective to His precepts. I never knew or seen a change like this before. Don’t get me wrong, churches speak of this change but you don’t see or in my case receive it. Many people get a dose of do better, they say they want to change and even give it up for awhile but to keep this deliverance we need power from on high. Yes power! Two months after giving my life to Christ on February 12, 2003 I received the Holy Ghost (Acts 1:8). I call him my KEEPING POWER.
By God’s grace and mercy I started my journey from brokenness toward holiness. God knew I needed a few more things on this journey so he sent me a wonderful wife, two stepdaughters and a son Cameron Jr. At first it was hard to believe that someone could look pass my past and love me for me. When I first told her about the old me, she said she serves a God of Deliverance and on September 3, 2005 we married. Now walking forward in the things of God, I minister to other men and women who are bound by this disease to please. This powerful ministry, A Street called Straight: helps administer true freedom to an audience on how to stay delivered through the keeping power of the Holy Spirit.
Deliverance can come in a moment, but you must walk in it for a life time.
By: Cameron Brooks
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