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Atheist to Jesus Freak

February 1, 2012

I grew up going to church in a family of professing Christians. I read my Bible every day and prayed every day. Slowly I let the world work itself into my life. The first thing was masturbation. I considered masturbation a “grey area,” not necessarily sin, so I let it slide. I’m here to tell anyone in the same place, it’s SIN! And that sin will eat you like no other that I know of.
Every day it seemed like I was in front of the computer screen pleasuring myself. At some point I stopped reading my Bible and praying. ...

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Delivered from a Confused Mindset

January 29, 2012

My name is Maeshell Matthews. I was born on a southern plantation 68 years ago. My parents were sharecroppers. Our parents were seldom home and us kids had the run of the house. There were eleven of us children. Me being the fifth child between seven brothers helped me to become a rough tom boy. Our home was always noisy, something was always happening. Daddy and mudda (we called our mother “Mudda” were often cussing and fighting each other, we tended to do the same. When our parents fought we would stand huddled together in fear. I was always afraid ...

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The Light in My Darkness

January 29, 2012

I was nine when I started in a long, downward spiral. It would take two years to hit rock bottom, but I did. I am afraid (yet thankful) that, if I was not so protected, I would have been in a lot more trouble. But, I did not know what was coming nor did I notice the gradual slope down.
It started at home. My mom yelled at me for the tiniest things. She always criticized me. I had no one to talk to about their, either. I kept it bottled up inside. Every night I would cry for about two ...

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My Road to Damascus

January 29, 2012

For decades I tried just about everything to find happiness, self respect, love and the answers to the questions, why am I hear and what is life all about. That journey led me from having most everything I wanted and still not being happy, to pain, sorrow, loneliness, homelessness, hopelessness, alcoholism, drug addiction and thoughts of suicide. After years of trying and when the pain was just too much to bear, I fell to my knees and asked God to either end this miserable life of mine or show me how to live the right way. I asked him to ...

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God Sent Me An Angel

January 28, 2012

I was eighteen when I found out I was pregnant. At first it was overwhelming and scary a storm of mixed emotions. I went to all my doctors appointments as I should of, and the doctors always confirmed everything was perfect.
When I gave birth on December 13,2007 the doctor noticed that my baby didn’t look “normal” later Natalie was diagnosed with down syndrome. The doctors were surprised since I was only 19. I didn’t care I loved her with all my heart and soul.later I was told I couldn’t take my daughter home with me she was put ...

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Better Days!

January 27, 2012

Through my years of adolescence I was lost and confused. I would look at my life and wonder why our Heavenly Father placed me in such a stressful situation. No father, a single parent that works her butt off to complain about bills, no house to call my own, friends interested in senseless activities, etc. I would sometimes cry, use drugs as an temporary escape, let anger take over and destroy things. Anything to release that built-up frustration inside. Not realizing at that moment I was faithless, didn’t pray often, and had a lack of instruction.
At this point my relationship ...

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God Changed Me

January 27, 2012

I’m 16 years old, TRULY living for god. I gave my life to Christ about 1 year ago. Being 15 year old, empty inside looking for things to complete me in all the wrong places. Hurt by a broken family, parents divorced, brother passed away, grandparents passed.
I use to look to be filled with love by having boyfriend after boyfriend after boyfriend. I use to drink, and smoke marijuana, all of this just made me feel worse and more lonely. One day, i was giving up. i prayed and asked god to help me and to ...

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The Skies Roar

January 27, 2012

My parents divorced when I was young and I grew up fighting and getting in trouble. I was expelled from middle school due to being caught with drugs in school. I some how made it through and graduated from high school, it was there when my life took a dramatic turn for the worst. I began drinking alcohol and doing massive amounts of drugs. So much so, that in a two month span I lost fifty pounds from a cocaine addiction.
Shortly after my mother learned of my addictions. I felt as if the chaos had so easily entangled me ...

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The Prodigal Son

January 26, 2012

As I accepted Christ in my life last year God has never left me even when I thought he has. Last year I turned myself in for a crime I committed a while back. The day I turned myself in, just so happened the Police Officer that picked me up was a Member of the Church Of Christ. We started talking about God and how amazing his Grace is (I KNEW RIGHT THEN AND THERE GOD PUT HIM IN MY LIFE ). Anyways he told me everything was going to be alright and I did the right thing by turning ...

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Do you really know God?

August 17, 2011

Since I was a little girl my dad has always taught me about God. I always thought I knew how God was even though I never followed the ways of the bible. I always thought that God was just our creator but I didn’t know that he’s more than that. A lot has happened in my life. I always just lived my life doing whatever I wanted. Parties and more parties drinking with no control living the life according to me. I came to a point when I was feeling alone. I felt empty and wasn’t happy with my life. ...

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